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December 14, 2019
“ I guess you’re right,” he said with understanding, “people can change, you certainly have. You are not the same person I was married to.” My ex-husband said this to me on the phone the other day. It was a very memorable moment for me. Not only for what he said but for the fact that I never would have believed I could ever feel compassion or empathy for my ex spouse.
BACKSTORY
In reading the bio on my website you know that I was married for 24 years and that my marriage ended when I was an expat living in Panama. I did not see it coming and it devastated me. I have never experienced something as gut wrenching and traumatic as my marriage ending. No way was I ever going to feel compassion or empathy for my ex.
His comment was the result of a telephone conversation we had had as two days prior he had reached out by email asking for my help. He was trying to remember something that may or may not have happened with a 40 year friendship of his. I had of course known this person, and their history, while we were married. Further backstory; he had a major motorcycle accident 9 months after we split up. This resulted in 5 months of in- hospital therapy and a permeant brain injury, making him a completely different person than the man I had been married too.
He has a gap in his memory, due to the accident, and hoped I may be able to help fill it in as he was desperately trying to figure out what had gone wrong with this relationship.
So being able to have this conversation with my ex was pretty momentous in my personal growth.
PERSPECTIVE
When I read his email, two days prior to the call, my curiosity was peaked. My interpretation was that he wasn’t just looking for an answer to a question. Such as, had there been a major fight with his friend he had forgotten about? Rather I felt I was hearing a desire for understanding and dare I say, even responsibility. During our marriage he had not been one to see his responsibility in a situation easily, was it possible he had changed as well?
My modus operandi, while we were married, was to immediately jump to frustration and condemnation with him. I was good at laying blame and telling him what to do. How could he not see what was right in front of him?
As I pondered it further the new me began to emerge. I asked myself, how do I show up to this conversation? Will I fall into default mode when I hear his voice or will I be present to who I am now? Do I want to just be a provider of facts and keep it short and sweet or as a coach, bringing in all the coaching/life skills I have learned in our 8 years apart.
THE CALL
It’s funny when I look back on it, was thinking I had a choice in how to show up. I didn’t really because the skills I brought to the call are now a part of my core, they are who I am. Because as he pointed out to me, I have changed.
Throughout our conversation I took out of my tool box the skills I have learned as a coach.The same life skills I help my coaching clients learn how to use in their lives. Listening, empathy, open ended questions, vulnerability, courage, curiosity, non judgement, compassion. They all showed up.
With these skills I created a connection. Through them I showed him that he had the answers he was seeking already inside of himself. He just needed some self reflection and to be asked the right questions. I also brought forth examples of these things from past experiences we both knew about. I helped connect the dots for him.
TIEING IT ALL TOGETHER
I felt such a warm glow when I got off the phone. The universe had shifted just a little for me. I think it was a feeling of completion.
In this conversation I had created a connection with someone whom I never thought I would have one with again after all the hurt and pain between us. We had spoken about experiences that only I could have shared with him.
I have said to many people, over the past 8 years, that if it were not for the courage of my ex husband asking for a divorce I would not have found this path of communication, connection and being a coach. My mantra was ,” but I’ll never tell him that. “ But with this call I was given a chance to do just that. I am proud I had the courage and vulnerability to do it. It deepened the connection, and that’s a good thing.
WHAT’S IN IT FOR YOU?
I share this story because whether you are a client, a potential client or a friend, I want you to know we all have within us the power to change. My journey has not been an easy one. Eight years ago I would have never thought I would be able to show compassion and empathy for my ex. But the possibility of life being different than what we see through our current lens is possible.
With time, experiences and open eyes to a different perspective we can get there. Find the people to help you on your journey, and keep trying, even when you stumble and get dirt on your face, find the courage to keep trying.
I promise you the internal reward is worth it.
Thank you Rick for allowing me the opportunity to share with you all that I have become, not in spite of you, but because of you.
2 Comments
Thank you so much for this! I am going through the first steps of divorce from my husband of 33 years. We have been separated for three years but we were working on getting back together and he was telling me he loved me and wanted to get back together and he would travel to my new state to be with me and family members. then suddenly, he said he was no longer interested in getting back together and wanted a divorce.
It is very hard to feel compassion but I am working hard on it. He went through a lot of therapy in these three years to face trauma he had not realized or come to terms with while he pleaded with me to just be patient. I tried too hard to “help” him and that felt very wrong to him. I regret it now. I wish I’d just moved on and worked on my self….but my anxiety and fear wouldn’t allow it. I see it all now but it’s too late.
So now it is all over and it is tough. I relate to all you are saying and I am feeling more understanding and I see my faults all too clearly now. It’s a good thing but it hurts and the pain is very powerful. I keep meditating, reading, talking with friends and trying to look forward. Its very hard when you are a senior citizen however. But I am actually glad it has happened.even through the pain.. It feels like ripping my heart apart and yet it has opened my heart. I hope I will heal. I am encouraged by your comments.
Hi Susan,
I am glad that the post was helpful for you. It sounds like you have been working on creating greater self awareness and growing from this painful experience. A divorce is never easy. Your words,”it feels like ripping my heart apart and yet it has opened my heart” very aptly describe the during and the after process that I also went through. Wishing you well on your continued journey.